I feel you I was like that a few years ago

Hair straightening is just a painful process but if you want it you can get a relaxing done

Or you could use curl cream

https://www.amazon.com/Marc-Anthony-Coconut-Oil-Curl-Cream/dp/B01DUXSS3O/ref=sr_1_2?crid=2K1ENYXTY83MF&keywords=marc+anthony+curl+cream&qid=1689038373&s=beauty&sprefix=marc+anthony+curl+cream%2Cbeauty%2C138&sr=1-2