As much as i didn't want to after finding out what it was, i found a pretty cheap one on amazon.

https://www.amazon.com/AMCH-Realistic-Packing-Desire-Pleasure17970/dp/B08Z8LSNST/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=ftm+packer&qid=1617903458&sr=8-1

now excuse me while I go clear my search history