Herra are some resources that really helped me get my theology in line with my lived reality as a gay Christian man:
https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Bible-Homosexuality-Revised-Expanded/dp/066423397X/
https://www.amazon.com/Coming-Out-Sacrament-Chris-Glaser/dp/0664257488/
https://www.amazon.com/Christianity-Social-Tolerance-Homosexuality-Fourteenth/dp/022634522X/
https://www.amazon.com/Bible-Tells-Me-So/dp/B071H7C5YC/
http://straightahead.comicgenesis.com/
https://www.amazon.com/Radical-Love-Introduction-Queer-Theology/dp/1596271329/
I'm a gay Christian who has been singing with a Jewish chorus for a number of years now and been celebrating some of the holy days with Jewish friends for a long time now, and staying to get into the theologies and deeper mysteries of "the ancient faith".
So I'm just on the other side of the mirror, so to speak.
If you're looking for queer Christian resources, these have been very helpful in my journey, and they might be useful for you too.
https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Bible-Homosexuality-Revised-Expanded/dp/066423397X/
https://www.amazon.com/Coming-Out-Sacrament-Chris-Glaser/dp/0664257488/
https://www.amazon.com/Anyone-Everyone-Susan-Polis-Schutz/dp/B000WGLADI/
https://www.amazon.com/Bible-Tells-Me-So/dp/B071H7C5YC/
http://straightahead.comicgenesis.com/
https://www.amazon.com/Radical-Love-Introduction-Queer-Theology/dp/1596271329/
Discover that God loves you and that your sexuality is not a sin, but a gift.
Here's some resources that helped me:
https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Bible-Homosexuality-Revised-Expanded/dp/066423397X/
https://www.amazon.com/Coming-Out-Sacrament-Chris-Glaser/dp/0664257488/
https://www.amazon.com/Anyone-Everyone-Susan-Polis-Schutz/dp/B000WGLADI/
https://www.amazon.com/Bible-Tells-Me-So/dp/B071H7C5YC/
http://straightahead.comicgenesis.com/
https://www.amazon.com/Radical-Love-Introduction-Queer-Theology/dp/1596271329/