https://www.amazon.com/Original-Fidget-Retro-Rubberized-Controller/dp/B06ZYKCPWR

I have two of this one, and my boyfriend and I both really like it. In fact it's the one he often defaults do when grabbing something from our fidget basket. It was smaller than I expected from the pictures, but is comfortable to hold.

The Original Fidget Retro: The Rubberized Classic Controller Game Pad Fidget Focus Toy

here's the exact one I got! i highly recommend it. I got the fidget cube but the cube shape made it impossible to hold comfortably in my hands, this one is a lot like a tiny remote kind of, but it fits in my hand way better and I feel like its actually a thing I can carry around and use discreetly.