I've been loving this one lately: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B06XJ29X2R
Orgasms that you give yourself can (and are in my case) way superior to what 80%+ of men can give women. Men are just not that great at giving the best orgasms to women, they tend to be way too focused on their penis instead. You know your own body so much better than they will ever do!
I have this one from Amazon—it’s slim and it only cost $30. I think I started using it when I was on dilator 3 (I have a set of 8).
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